I started blogging because I needed an outlet that didn't cost any money and kept me home. I needed something to fill my days with some sort of activity besides laundry, dishes and other ho-hum jobs. I didn't have money to pursue other interests or hobbies I have such as cooking, gardening, travel or the gym, and I couldn't afford babysitting to go out with friends. Blogging seemed to be the perfect solution- It gave me a moment of interesting in sometimes a very boring life.
At first, I had huge plans to blog daily with witty anecdotes and clever family activities and ideas that would draw a huge pool of faithful readers and maybe make a little money along the way. Then, it sort of became a way for me to keep grandparents in touch with my family since we only see each other once in a while because of distance. I also realized that it would be a great way to journal and capture my girls as they grow since I do not keep up on photo-albums. And then, once in a while, I write because I think that maybe I can, and blogging is preparing me for that "one big moment" where I will actually have something published and be in high demand. After rereading posts however, I realize that I should never plan on quitting my day job.
Lately, I have been too busy to sit down and write. Ideas will run through my head and I will come up with, I think, a clever format, but by the time I finally sit down to write, I am either beat, or the idea has been lost in some grocery list or other tedious and never-ending task. Then, there are those nights, like tonight, where I feel like blogging and actually have time to blog, but do not have one funny or special family moment to share nor do I have some creative thought brewing in my mind.
Life is funny that way. It never seems like anything is aligned in a perfect order. Instead, things are in a continual disarray- leaving us to make the most of what is and doing the best we can with what we have. I realize that if we don't make the most of what we can then it will become a lost opportunity and other gifts will not be given.
This is the reason I am posting tonight. It is really not a profound or thought provoking post. It is also not going to make me a writer or capture a glimpse of the grandkids. It continues to be an outlet however that has no cost and gives me a sense of expression which is what I needed in the first place. So, without further ado, I will finish this post and sign-off for the evening hoping for something more interesting to share the next time I blog. I hope it won't be like watching cement dry or a hot, long and dry season. Time will tell, only time will tell.
